海伦说。无数次想把老公变成你的样子，可是无数次都以失败告终，无奈的自己只能在夜里哭泣，在我身后对自己说，改变自己就是上帝，改变对方就是神经病，他不是你，我对他说什么，我都点燃不了对方，然后我放弃了对老公的改变，不要有任何要求。我心里真的没有痛。不期待一个人，就不会有失望。这也是我的婚姻出路。我曾经想，如果命运只能是这样，那我就把我无法实现的爱情写在我的故事里。但是我找不到一个能让我塑造这个人和人格的人。直到你出现在我的生命中，我才觉得我的生命是完整的。
我无数次想把我老公变成你的样子，可是我失败了无数次，无助的自己只能在夜里哭泣，在我身后对自己说，改变自己是上帝，改变对方是神经病，他不是你，我对他说任何话，我都不能点燃对方，然后我放弃了改变我的丈夫，没有任何要求。我真的心里没有痛如果不期待一个人，就不会有失望。这也是我走出婚姻的出路。我曾经以为，如果我的命运只能是这样，那么我就会写下我在故事中无法实现的爱。但我找不到一个能让我塑造这个男人和性格的人。直到你出现在我的生命里，我才觉得我的生命完整了。
柯林斯说。在遇到你之前，我的生活是如此的不完整。遇见你的那一刻，我的人生彻底改变了。当我第一次见到你的时候，我的心脏漏跳了一拍。那一次我知道我真的爱你。什么是人眼中的爱情？兼容和信任，按人来说叫爱情。但是，对我来说，爱是一种改变。当你为某人而改变。当你做你不喜欢的事情时。当你感受到激情，当他们离开你的视线时，你会哭泣。对我来说这就是爱。你知道我非常爱你。我对你的爱会持续到最后。和你在一起，我觉得我是新的我，因为我不需要伪装。恋爱是有史以来最美妙的感觉。我爱你，永远爱你。
认识你之前我的人生是如此的不完整。我遇见你的那一刻，我的生活完全改变了。当我第一次见到你的时候，我的心怦直跳。那一次我才知道我是真的爱你。什么是爱根据人？相融与信任，依人而称之爱。但是，对我来说，爱是一种改变。当你为一个人而改变。当你做你不喜欢的事情。当你感到激情和哭泣时，他们就消失在视线之外。这就是我所说的爱。你知道我很爱你。我对你的爱是如此的，它将持续到最后。和你在一起，我觉得我是新的我，因为我不需要假装。恋爱是最美妙的感觉。我爱你，永远爱你。
柯林斯说："宝贝，我现在得忙起来了，还要吃早午餐
rest my eyes a little still feeling tired。宝贝我现在要去忙了，也有早午餐和休息我的眼睛有点还感觉很累
Helen said.Dear Collins, your interpretation of love is perfect, go and eat something, I will record us bit by bit, I want to tell the world. The person I love most in this life is Collins, remember I love you, my dear Collins
亲爱的柯林斯，你对爱的诠释是完美的，去吃点东西吧，我会记录我们的点点滴滴，我要告诉全世界。这辈子我最爱的人是柯林斯，记住我爱你，我亲爱的柯林斯。
The sky was really beautiful when we were arriving in Hong Kong all i kept thinking about was you and how much this contract means to me, you make my life full of bliss i love you so much. i will go eat now dear. after that i will rest baby。
当我们到达香港的时候，天空真的很美。我一直在想的是你和这份合同对我来说有多重要，你让我的生活充满了幸福我很爱你 我现在就去吃饭，亲爱的。以后我会休息宝贝
Helen said.Go, I will always be Collins, you have a good rest, rest and conquer your world. I will guard your heart and fill your heart with love and happiness! I love you very much, you will never lose me。
去吧，我永远都属于柯林斯，你好好休息，休息，征服你的世界。我会守护你的心，用爱和幸福填满你的心！我很爱你，你永远不会失去我。
十月一号晚上21点45分
Collins said. Good evening, baby.
晚上好宝贝
Helen said.How about it? How was work today?
怎么样？今天工作怎么样？
Collins said.im good dear. i havent began to work yet. the covid result came back this evening and i will be grtting my work permit in the morning。
我很好，亲爱的。我还没有开始工作。今天晚上冠状病毒的结果出来了，我早上会拿到工作证。
Helen said.What's the matter?What's the matter? Nucleic acid report.
怎么了吗，怎么了？核酸报告。
Collins said.everything is going okay now. tomorrow once i get my work permit i will be going to the seaport to get my machine and heavy duty equipment that i shiiped nd will be using for the project。
现在一切都很顺利。明天一旦我拿到我的工作许可证，我将去海港拿我的机器和重型设备，我施佩德和将用于该项目。
Helen said.That's good, I'm most afraid of the epidemic infection, I don't care about anything, I hope you I hope the people I love are safe, and the epidemic in China is not over.
那就好，我最怕疫情传染，我什么都不在乎，希望你一切顺利。我最怕疫情传染，我什么都不在乎除了你，我希望我爱的人平安，中国的疫情还没有结束。
Helen said.Is the machine very expensive?
机器很贵吗？
Collins said.yes the machines are very expensive and everything about the contract depends on the machine that why i would be going very early in the morning to get the machines from the seaport。
是的，机器非常昂贵，合同上的一切都取决于机器，这就是我为什么会在大清早去海港取机器的原因。
Helen said: How much is a piece of equipment in RMB? What kind of equipment is it? Is it a sale?
How much is a piece of equipment in RMB? What kind of equipment is it? Is it a sale?
该设备是石油勘探的大型设备。有些机器可能在到之间。RMB当其他人的价格可能涨至欧元时RMB上升的
它们非常昂贵，因为它们的工作性质
大部分的设备损坏或丢失时很难更换，而其他待售，但你必须在国外购买。
Collins said.these machines are so important to me and this contract and i wouldnt want anyone of them to get damage, i hope they were all shipped safely to the seaport
这些机器对我和这份合同很重要我不希望他们中的任何人受到伤害，我希望他们都被安全地运到了海港。
Collins said.Collins, you take your job very seriously, and you're doing things that I never thought possible, But I'm very proud of you,I think it is not easy to do any work well.
柯林斯，你对待工作很认真，你做的事情我从来没有想过可能，但我为你感到骄傲我认为做好任何工作都是不容易的。
Helen said.You go to conquer your world, I take good care of your heart, for you to do proud and happy on it. I like to hear you say anything to me.
你去征服你的世界，我好好照顾你的心，为你做骄傲和快乐就可以了。我喜欢听你对我说任何话。
Collins said.Honey you give me courage and strength
亲爱的你给我勇气和力量<呲牙>
Collins said.I found a hero, and it's always nice to worship pride in my heart.I'm proud of my hero.
我找到了一个英雄，在心里崇拜骄傲总是好的，我为我的英雄感到骄傲。
Collins said.my work is stressful sometimes and Life in Sea is very risky,I just want you to have idea about my Job. my wife used to know about my job
while we are working offshore We are not allowed to make video or voice calls there in the ship due to the interference it may cause to machinery we use for oil drilling..
我的工作压力很大，在海上的生活是非常危险的，我只是想让你知道我的工作。我妻子以前知道我的工作
我们在海外工作时我们不允许在船上进行视频或语音通话，因为这可能会对我们用于石油钻探的机器造成干扰。
Helen said.I do not ask for anything, as long as you are safe, no matter what you do, you can work easily, do not give yourself too much pressure! You talk to different people when you work.
我不要求什么，只要你安全就好，不管做什么事，你都可以轻松工作，不要给自己太多压力！你工作的时候和不同的人聊天
Helen said.How did you and your wife meet
你和你妻子是怎么认识的？
Collins said.its a really long story, but it was after i came back from studying in germany. i lived in germany for up to 8years i worked ther for some time after i graduated, when i lost my parent i had to come back to seoul i was so devastated and depressed she had me every step of the way. she was my moral compass and i was sad when i lost her, Baby i cherish you so much now you are my guide now and my moral compass also<愉快>
说来话长，但那是在我从德国留学回来之后。我在德国住了8年我毕业后在那里工作了一段时间，当我失去父母，我不得不回到首尔我当时很崩溃很沮丧她有我的每一步。她是我的道德指南针当我失去她时我很伤心，宝贝我非常珍惜你，现在你是我的向导，也是我的道德指南针<愉快>
Helen said.I used to be stressed, but now maybe I practice meditation a lot, and my mind is basically empty, and most of the time I am happy.
我以前压力很大，但现在我可能练习了很多冥想，我的头脑基本上是空的，大部分时间我都很开心。
Collins said.my best feeling is whenever i talk to you, we deserve to continue to be happy with each other
我最好的感觉就是每当我和你说话的时候，我们都值得继续彼此快乐下去
Collins said.Dear Collins, what do your parents do?You have to love yourself, parents look at you in heaven, will also bless you.
亲爱的柯林斯，你父母是做什么的？你要爱自己，父母在天堂看着你，也会祝福你。
Collins said.my parents were ordinary people in seoul. my mother used to work as an accountant while she ws young but later had to quit so she can raise me while my dad was a civil engineer in seoul
我父母在首尔都是普通人 我母亲年轻时曾是一名会计，但后来她不得不辞职，以便在我父亲在首尔当土木工程师时抚养我
Helen said.I will accompany you at any time, because my heart is free, very calm, I do not have any desire, nor worry about people.
我随时都会陪着你，因为我的心是自由的，很平静的，我没有任何欲望，也没有牵挂的人。
Collins said.My heart had a hole in it but then you came and filled it with love unbound. I can’t think of any other person who could do such a miracle in my life.
The day heaven opened its door for the first time on me, is the day an angel came down on earth. That angel just happens to be you
我的心有个洞但你来了，充满了无限的爱。我想不出还有谁能在我的生命中做出这样的奇迹。
我第一次踏上天堂之门的那一天，是一位天使降临人间的日子。那个天使恰好是你
Helen said.Parents should be very good feelings, your heart is very delicate, should be born in a loving family! Because I think there is a person worthy of their own heart to love, the heart is very rich, love can heal everything in life.
父母应该感情很好，你的心很细腻，应该出生在一个有爱的家庭！因为我觉得有一个人值得自己用心去爱，内心很丰富，爱可以治愈生活中的一切。
Collins said.they loved me so much and did there best to raise me right i owe them so much
他们非常爱我，并且在那里把我养育得很好。我欠他们太多了。
Helen said.I can feel that your heart loves your parents very much, you are very lucky to have such a pair of parents, good childhood cures life, bad childhood cures life, I am the latter.Your parents are the stars in the sky and will always accompany you, because the love they give you has always been in your heart. When you miss them, they will be the warm and lasting strength in your heart. They have never left, they just exist in another way to stay with you forever, and I will always stay with you so that you are not alone.
我能感觉到你的心很爱你的父母，你很幸运有这样的一对父母，好的童年治愈生命，坏的童年用一生来治愈童年，我是后者。你的父母是天上的星辰，永远会陪伴你，因为他们给你的爱一直留在你内心里，当你想念他们的时候，他们会是你心里那份温暖和持久的力量。他们从没有离开只是换一种方式存在永远陪伴你左右，我也会一直陪着你让你不在孤独。
Helen said.So my destiny makes me pay attention to my heart, spiritual and psychological aspects, all to make myself better. I can forgive my parents and my heart will be broad! I am satisfied with myself, at least I did it
所以我的命运让我关注自己的内心，精神和心理方面，都是为了让自己变得更好。我可以原谅我的父母，我的心会宽广！我对自己很满意，至少我做到了
Collins said.if we love ourselves enough we can help each other heal
如果我们足够爱自己，我们就能帮助彼此疗伤
Helen said.I was born in a family, parents often domestic violence, I always scared to cry, they often angry hit me, I often because my mother is a mental patient was discriminated against and hurt by the people around.Yes, I learned in the pain of self-care, learn to treat their own adversity.
我出生在一个家庭，父母经常家暴，我总是吓哭，他们经常生气的打我，我经常因为我的母亲是一个精神病人而被周围的人歧视和伤害。是的，我在痛苦中学会了自理，学会了对待自己的逆境。
Collins said.baby today im so tired from all the strees i think i might need to rest early because i will be going to the seaport in the morning，Good night, dear Collins.
好了，早点睡吧！记住我爱你的时候和哪里的家人，会支持你陪伴你！晚安亲爱的柯林斯。
